Tarot, Astrology and the meaning of life.
If you think that title is ambitious, then you don’t know me at all. 😂
A while ago, I attended my second ever writing workshop and the experience was very warm and up-lifting. Yesterday, as I was trying to get my shit together, one of my housemates pointed out that that’s what there is to life for the most part.
Endlessly getting your shit together, rearranging and arranging, bundling and unbundling. It reminded me of a piece I wrote at that workshop about what drowning feels like. We wrote 4 pieces with different prompts in 5 minutes, and so I’m sharing my favourite 2 out of the 4 with you. Enjoy!
Drowning
There are some days I wake up and it feels as though I did not wake up with myself. As if +me went to sleep, but -me woke up, and is expected to function as +me. Distractions help, but you still know deep down that it's only a fix and you only need that fix because you are not complete. Where did the other parts go?
I’m not a strong swimmer, but I reckon drowning is like living, but at 0.10x playback speed. All of us, on this dying rock, running out of every single thing.
Cold Leaves
It’s very difficult for me to meet his eye as I sit down in front of him and stare at my plate. I reach for the wine bottle, refill my glass and take a sip. I try to smile, but I remember how my best friend Jessica tells me my face gives everything away, so I’m afraid to even meet his eye across the small table.
“What do you think?” He asks
“Uh, I would say, ‘interesting’.” Then I add, “You know my grandmother didn’t eat leaves.”
“Hummm?”
“Oh yeah my grandmother used to say only goats ate leaves, so she didn’t eat any leafy meals.”
He laughs then. “Well, old people are something.”
“Yes they are,” I say. Then you look at the plate, and then at him.
what I’ve been watching
A lot of tarot reading videos as I dive deeper and deeper into my astrology bag.
I’m not sure how I got into this exactly, but I know it happened during the panoramic lockdown. So I’ve linked all my favourite readers down here for you to explore and if you know others, please share!
Paradise PD
This one took a bit to grow on me and sometimes it's still a little difficult to swallow (I know what I did there). But some friends have mentioned that if you liked Brickleberry, you’d like this and like I said, it did grow on me.
RuPaul’s Drag Race
Since we last spoke, Olivia broke my heart and left the race, Kandy Muse surprised the fuck out of me and everyone else, and Rose’s redemption arc has been beautiful to watch. But you see my girl Symone-Symoney? She better win or WE RIOTTTT. #TeamSymone #RuPaulsDragRace
What I’ve been reading
Love in Color - Bolu Babalola
The Death of Vivek Oji - Akwaeke Emezi
I Do Not Come to You by Chance - Tricia Ubani
What I’ve been listening to
Love & Light
P.S: In the original piece about Drowning, I wrote that -I reckon drowning is like living, but at 10x playback speed- but someone at the workshop who almost drowned told me that it was the opposite, that drowning slows down everything. So I reversed it here. Thank you to that person. 🙏🏾
Also, shout out to Nafi for bugging me about this so much I actually wrote it. Thank you babes!